Now that it’s been a few days and news has spread about my new job, most people naturally ask me if I’m excited. Well … I am. But there’s more to it than that. Excitement is an emotion, a state of being, and like any emotion, it’s in flux. Overall, I’m feeling really good about the move, and it’s really nice feeling wanted. And the more people I tell throughout the industry I work in about where I’m headed, the more compliments I get … and that’s always a nice ego booster.
And yet makinNow that it’s been a few days and news has spread about my new job, most people naturally ask me if I’m excited. Well … I am. But there’s more to it than that. Excitement is an emotion, a state of being, and like any emotion, it’s in flux. Overall, I’m feeling really good about the move, and it’s really nice feeling wanted. And the more people I tell throughout the industry I work in about where I’m headed, the more compliments I get … and that’s always a nice ego booster.
And yet making any big change like this–new job, new home, getting married, having a baby, etc.–is also a time of reflection. The ending of one phase, the beginning of another. This entire process is happening quite quickly, and with only 6 more days left in the office at my current job, there’s a lot I want to wrap up before I go.
Most importantly, there’s much I want to say to the people who I’ve been working with–and supervising–these last few years, as I still feel responsible for them. Little reminders to keep them on track, some planning tips here, a little strategy there. They’ve put a lot of trust in me, and I feel the very strong responsibility still to leave them with as much support as I can. And it’s not like I think they can’t live without me–of course they can–but I’ve been a big part of their lives, just as they’ve been a big part of mine. Caring about people doesn’t end when roles change. Caring about people extends through time.
And sure, as that time goes on they’ll adjust at some point to not having me around, just as I’ll adjust to them not having them around. But it’s hard to leave people behind when they’re important to me, and for the team I’ve been supervising–and a few others I’ve worked with–we’ve been like a little family. And I’m grateful for that. For them.
So when people ask me if I’m excited to move on … I am. But it’s not just excitement. It’s accepting that I’ll be leaving some people behind, in a certain way. And while the changing of our relationship isn’t tragic, it’s not something I’m necessary excited about either. Change can be really good, as I believe this new job will be. It’s just that not every element of the change feels quite as sweet as others.
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